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All the voices

or that to fox or fool others and what this means is they’ve become the reason for your actions. These people have become your motivation. Well, that’s as bad as any other form of control, surely. And worse because you can cosy yourself along with it, getting pleasure from the belief you’re free of them when in fact it’s quite the opposite. So you’re self- deluded which is a really bad way to be. To my way of thinking it’s the worst bad in the box. And now I’ve arrived at the word box I must just say that I’ve always had this mental picture of a box of tricks . I don’t know what’s inside exactly except they’re things that keep you safe from the menace of friends. They keep you free. The tricks are

what save you from being dragged through the murk of other peoples’ comfort zones. So the box of tricks is the last place youwant to see something as horrible as self-delusion, cropping up. It is like, your final resting place. I imagine the box as having special mirrors all around it when you look in. I’d have total understanding of the angles and reflections but anybody else taking a peek unasked would end up more confused than when they’d started out. They’d be likely to see a distorted image of their own face at some point, if they kept on looking at the mirrors for long enough. The last thing they would see would be me. What I want to do now is finish talking about the smile. Because there I was

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