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of green and brown dots, I might add. He said he didn’t know why he didn’t like this pattern but later on told me it reminded him of dog turds on the grass and that was why he could never eat his dinner. ‘Oh,’ I just said when he informed me. Ciaran had an eating disorder so bad he had to be hospitalised at one time, which is why, when my parents, my aunt and cousin Chuck watched me dancing from behind the garden hedge, he hadn’t been with them. Because that was the hospital time and Auntie Errie had come up from Plymouth to be supportive to Mum. I just said ‘Oh,’ when Ciaran talked about the dog poo making him feel too sick to eat food because I knew full well that his problem went way beyond that as

he hadn’t been able to eat last year or the year before that and we didn’t have the curtains then, we only had blinds that were plain blue and had nothing to do with food images as blue wasn’t a colour that you usually associated with food of any kind, except the sort of sweets my mum wouldn’t let us have. My mother said blue food wasn’t natural , which brings me back. Natural is at least being able to breathe I guess, but maybe soon we’ll find another way of surviving. Because of the pollution in the air Ciaran got asthma attacks. He’d be making this wheezing sound in the night and I’d have to call Mum. Ciaran used to make bad-devil faces at me before we went to sleep and he said he was

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