with Sri Ganesh

… All these past weeks I had withdrawn, accepting to be reduced and distanced and disconnected even from Sri Ganesh. This was my way of offering, of surrendering everything and it was also the expression of my acceptance of the law that, on this Path of real Change, one must not even ask for support or protection… In other ways my assessment was that, in actual terms, this service and this emotional relationship with Sri Ganesh – this stepping through a breach or over a threshold into what I have been calling “Sri Ganesh” – are of no consequence and have no substance, in the sense that they cannot possibly make any difference to the condition of penury and misery of the physical consciousness. But now that I have resumed this service, I find again the same presence, the same relationship, the same opening and the same vivid, delightful expression… And I don’t know…!

One thing is sure, Sri Ganesh, You are my Friend – And your affection and tenderness Brim with the delightful flow Of the Shakti…

- 28-12-09:

… I see that, very basically and enduringly within me, inwardly as well as outwardly, I have never been comfortable holding any beliefs of any sort; even faith is, to me, and has always been, a slightly suspect emotion which is not to be entertained in the long run as it is liable to mislead if left on its own, without the substantial contribution of actual, repeated experience and an increased capacity of being. And now that I have, for some weeks, left it all – all this sadhana with Sri Ganesh and its dedication to the Consciousness-Force -, I am almost reluctant to resume an expression which may not be entirely It is not that I welcome doubt; neither do I approve of cynicism. But I feel the need for further questioning and for reaching out to a more concrete, objective, effective manifestation and tangible signs of the way to proceed. Yet I must also acknowledge that, all through this period and the distance and withdrawal it brought, the matter of this service to Sri Ganesh and of this relationship was somehow always present as an founded… Or is it?!!!

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