Trafika Europe 11 - Swiss Delights

Mariella Mehr

I do wrong, don’t kill me, my heart, my heart cannot stand it, my head bursts, please, no more, no more, ss ssssssttttttttooooooooooooooppppppp. they shred my body, they torment me. what for? why all this? a terrible memory surfaces, this, silvia, you have experienced this once before, once a long time ago, a very long time ago. then silvia falls into a black nothing, this has to be death, this finally has to be death. i am not dead. silvia lives. hate. bottomless, murderous hate. silvia wants to destroy, all, herself, to leave nothing behind anymore of this horrible world. to kill, blood, much blood. to kill, to kill all. you pigs, you damned pigs, you damned murderers, i will finish you off, all of you. bellowing, only bellowing. silvia fights like an animal. awakening. silvia is not dead. silence, complete apathy. hollowed out, empty, empty of feelings, of pain. empty too of hate, emptiness, absolute emptiness, loneliness, abandoned on a cold black island. what will happen? what have they done to silvia? silvia is nine years old.

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