Trafika Europe 2 - Polish Nocturne

“And besides, your oven is electric,” she says with a shudder. “The bit about the oven was just a manner of speaking.” “It’s always been clear to me,” she says. “If one day I were to decide, it’d be in a nice warm bathtub.” “Too slow for me; you know I’m impatient, the faster the better.” I sigh at the difficulty of choosing. “But it’s incredible that removing yourself from the equation is so complicated!”

“Complicated?” she says.“Not at all!” “Ah, no?”

“Potassium injection.” “What?”

“Potassium chloride straight into the vein. Pills, don’t even think about it. I have a patient who took fifty tranquilizers the other day and he’s alive and kicking.”

“No kidding.”

“Yeah . . . He never stopped talking about killing himself and when he takes a shot at it, he screws it up!”

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The rest of the time we discuss the relationship between suicide and suicidal thinking. It’s not true that people who talk about suicide never kill themselves. Actually, the

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