Trafika Europe 2 - Polish Nocturne

used to want me to be your wife. A lot of them did.”

She surprised me, I’d never told her that. I wanted to say to her it wasn’t that I used to want her to be my wife, I still did now. You might not believe it, but I suddenly felt like I wanted to be in her unhappiness with her. True love is a wound. You can only find it inside yourself when someone else’s pain hurts you like your own.

But before I could explain this to her she said:

“Except that you guys working on building sites, wherever your site is, that’s where your wife is. What do you know about love.”

My courage failed me.

“Help me find my way out of here.”

“The gate’s over there,” I said. “I’ll walk you out.”

“I don’t want to use the gate.” She looked at me as if with those old eyes from the cafeteria. “You know, I still think you’re cute. But I already have a husband.”

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