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striving, contradictions would at times manifest in order to deepen one’s
understanding.
For this completeness was meant to be all-inclusive, in a profoundly ordered
manner, again following Her trail with the clues and keys She gave.
To excavate a bit of red soil for a lotus pond and create a hill with it on which to
plant uniquely beautiful trees was as important, as necessary as to fit the bolts of a
shuttering or cut a tile of white marble.
To yearn for Nature’s magic was as much part of one’s aspiration as to honour the
Presence in Matter itself and learn to offer one’s being through service.
It is through the ordinary centre of gravity that ideals eventually become
subterfuges, dreams turn to illusions and the soul’s knowing is made into dogmas
that oppose one another, and it is through that ordinariness that we continue to
pay tribute to the necessity of destruction and death rather than find the strength
to uphold Love’s victory.
Now again we are at this point of choice:
This ordinariness, this habitual exclusiveness of our still dominating instrumental
nature demands that we adhere to a truncated realisation, dogmatised, legalised,
planified, undersigned and countersigned; while the inner breath, the sense of
grace, still sings within of a dream coming true, of an embrace that welcomes and
contains all apparent contraries, of a living environment within which will freely
move the blessings of Her fragrant Presence and the sovereignty of Her
transforming hands”.
(Submitted by Divakar)
Note: The Core Group soon became the occasion for Roger A to “practice” his new-
found legal authority; he issued a number of written complaints claiming that we
were spending funds to execute works which had not been approved by him, while
works which were approved by him and ready to be implemented were kept in
abeyance. He accused Arjun and me, by names, of being the main challengers to
his authority and designs. (In a couple of formal, official occasions, both he and the
Chairman had put forward as a condition for any resolution to arise that I,
particularly - “this man!” -, must be removed)
The “idea” was floated that, if and when no consensus could be reached in the Core
Group, a simple majority could be considered as acceptable: this of course meant
that, from now on, every decision made by Roger A would be smoothly passed,
since Arjun was from the start outnumbered by 1 to 4.
Efforts were underway to consolidate Roger A’s authority on the site as well, by
appointing an on-site architect and an on-site engineer, so as to effectively
undercut the functioning of our team.
It was further decided that every expenditure would have to be passed by the Core
Group, and that the Secretary’s Office would be associated with the disbursement
and utilisation of all funds destined to the Matrimandir – meaning that for every
single operation and transaction, there would be the heaviest administrative
rigmarole. Therefore, the Secretary was made a compulsory signatory of all
cheques.