with Sri Ganesh

Heralding with your joy A new creation...

- 05-07-14:

... The clouds seem to be returning to cover the land... ... Rs. 120/- are offered...

... I have to continue recording here this tale of failure – for it is also Sri Ganesh’s concern and a true issue must be found. Yesterday I had told P. that the only way forward now was for him to tell his entire family (the cousins being it seems the main beneficiaries of this outpouring...) what he had actually done, and to write down a list of those “gifts” he had made – pretending... what... that I had willingly given it to him for those purposes ? Didn’t they suspect what he was really doing?... There were times when he would make two or three withdrawals a day... When I had seen the dates and timings of the withdrawals, which had been sent to me when the fraud was discovered, I was convinced it had to be some hacking into the ATM computer itself, even though everyone was telling me that it had to be some one intimate enough to have access to my cards... With these records in hand I can ascertain that, just through the Barclays card, over 8 lakhs at least were diverted within the period of March to December 2103 alone. P. told me where he found my code numbers. I told him that on my side I would tell no one at all – only D knows and I would ask him to keep silent about it all - until the time when P himself would be ready to tell everyone straight. I also told him that, once he had explained his actions to his family, I would want to meet his brother; he answered that I should do whatever I thought was right, including killing him...! He is also to bring me the official stamped documents of ownership of another small piece of land adjacent to his, for the urgent purchase of which he insisted we should break his fixed deposit, just last month... ... However, he has not come today – that is, he did come here to bring flowers, but not to see me. I do not know whether he will have the courage to go ahead and do what I asked. I do not know anything. I have been so wrong, so blind and so vain in my belief that this friendship was unique and true; and this obviously indicates a serious lack in my sadhana. And worse, it also seems to imply that I have been left to my own devices – abandoned by Your Force..., long ago

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