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Joy
you could definitely see it this
way, but things didn’t happen
like that, that I had asked
Ange, and this wasn’t the first
time, to loan me money and
that Ange was a friend. This
was another way to respond
to her: even if I asked Ange
to go settle a score with
Rédoine, I wouldn’t have had
to pay him for it. Because,
precisely, he was a friend.
6
The doctor just got up to the
stand and I see him again
announcing the death of my
mom, I remember that he
used the word “deceased”
and that I had told myself that
that was not a good word. It
was too violent of a word,
there were a lot of other ones
he could’ve used. The judge
of the court thanked him for
being available insisting on his
prestigious titles and, after a
few reminders of dates, asks
him what he remembers
about me.
The doctor responds that he
sees a considerable amount
of patients and families,
over a large number of
years, and I ask myself if he
clearly remembers me. He
adds that it seems to him
that I was his interlocutor
and that I was probably the
best for it because the other
members of the family were
too affected. I search for my
father’s eyes without finding
him, his eyes are lowered,
maybe even closed. The
judge asked logically to the
doctor if, in his opinion, I
was less bothered than the
others, than my father or my
brother for example.
The doctor responds that he
said nothing of that sort, that
he cannot decide on that and
repeats that he has seen a lot
of patients and their families