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Then I know I’m alone, that Giacomino who shoots at
planes at night isn’t there, that Josipina isn’t there because
she said she was going to iron a few things at the
watchmaker’s. And I’m alone with my two nephews. And I
hear them say to me to come to their room and lie on the
bed. I go to their room and I lie on the bed and my
nephews lie next to me and they caress me. I know, they are
caressing me on my face and then they caress my arms and
then legs and I know my ears are ringing, that I’d like to say
something, that I’d like to tell them something and I’d like
to stand on tiptoe and sing and I’d like to hear Mama sing
with me, and I’d like to be with Ivan, who is somewhere far
away and going to school so that he can cure me, and I see
the field, I suddenly see it full of weeds, I see my two
nephews in the field, tramping it down and laughing and
saying that there will never be any more potatoes in the
field, that weeds will grow and that the field won’t be able
to breathe. And then I see rain falling on the field, on the
weeds and on the nephews, who are laughing and saying
that the weeds will grow even more because the sun will
come out after the rain and it’ll be warm and the weeds will
grow even more, the weeds on the field, and then I sing,
loud, loud . . .
Ciao, ciao, bambina! Un bacio ancor
e poi per sempre ti perderò …