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Later, somehow, I broke through this exhaustion because, to my question, comes
only one answer and it is always the same: to build Matrimandir.
You have given us Matrimandir to build, as soon as possible, and You will use it to
receive and radiate Your Force, as You have said. And it is only Your Force that can
help us out of the difficulty and bring the true change; left to ourselves we can only
pull the thing down into semi-ignorance and damage Your work…
This answer brings joy and a vast movement of progress with much quiet and
strength: we must work towards the gathering of all of us on the city territory,
whether in the green zones or near the Centre; we CAN work together; we have
something to do together and this is the very means You have given us: we can
build Matrimandir together, the Gardens together, the green zones together, the
first functional buildings together. We can do it. This is our strength, the thing that
has the power to reveal our unity upon earth, in spite of everything…
It is towards that the efforts of the past year were tending, to form services,
working teams… Only, it must happen on the ground of the battle, we must
physically gather in a concentrated area…
The energy came back, we worked till 11 pm.
The moon is full. I feel happy again.
*6-6-1977, Auroville:
I keep thinking that if all of us here were really sincere, we would not need to reject
anyone; our need of You would be so intense and constant that it would draw the
power of Your truth-consciousness right here!
*12-6-1977, Auroville:
… At about 7.30 am the village owners of that land I have unwittingly fenced across
came to me; we went together to the spot and a long discussion followed; there
was no marking-stone and the land had not been cultivated for very long. I said I’d
first see our plot numbers. These people own several pieces of land, one of which is
very near Matrimandir, and they want to sell them all at a very high rate.
Later I went to see Shradhalu who explained the situation with land-purchase; the
maximum allowed has already been purchased by the SAS and to purchase more
requires a legal clearance of Auroville’s status, or else to take some risks in the
names of individuals…
So the only thing that remains is… to move the fence!
Somehow it brings me back to a state of anxiety, of non-understanding or
disagreement with what is taken as our present direction…
At 9.15 am I went to Matrimandir; V. was already there. I was so preoccupied that
at first I couldn’t work and she tried to help me formulate what I felt… It’s
difficult…I don’t want only Satprem’s Auroville and I don’t want Navajata’s Auroville
neither Shyamsunder’s… and neither mine!
I want to respect the conditions laid by the Supreme in order for humanity – and
the equilibrium of all the forces – to make the needed progress: that progress the
Lord sees as needed, that He Himself needs!
I don’t believe in the arguments used by the Aurovilians and I have no trust in the
SAS either.
I only feel on one hand a deep unity already there, since ever, with most of the
people involved in Auroville’s independence, but no affinity with their mental
positions; on the other hand I feel the imperative need that all the forces here may