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*1-11-1977, Auroville:
We worked till 11.30 am; today I am full of energy and of tenderness for
everyone... At 2 pm I went back to Matrimandir with V., we worked with R.O, Th.,
Andy, Gab. Ruud, till 4.30 pm; it is all ready for the next part of the scaffold but the
couplings haven’t come yet. Back here, worked in the garden. Pierre has come to
stay for a few days.
V. and I had a late dinner, cleaned up, boiled the milk and did the usual chores; she
seems to be more and more at my side; on the way home, we lay on the sand pile
watching the moon rise… I think I wanted to let the sweetness of the body express
itself and not the energy of sexual desire, so the desire came and went for a time;
we lay naked, I watched the movements of the mind, how all the problems exist in
the mind, by the mind… Later the desire moved us. I let out the semen but I
believe I was careful enough…
*2-11-1977, Auroville:
We worked on the scaffold and cleaned clamps till 4.30 pm. Then V. and I went
walking through the fields to Auroson’s Home to visit with Piero and Gl.; Piero
showed me his latest drawings on Matrimandir and its surroundings; one of them is
extremely beautiful, showing Matrimandir without discs or petals, surrounded with
an earth form covered with grass in the midst of trees and small rivers, just as I
have always prayed for; I felt deeply happy and grateful to see it, the image of this
living wonder we carry within us through Matrimandir…
*19-11-1977, Auroville:
We worked till 4.15 pm; then I helped Noh, Dadu and R. to put away all the goods
at the Kitchen.
V. has returned from town, she has bought a new bed-cover…
Mother, I’m so incredibly happy here, I live the most beautiful life and sometimes I
feel such an upsurge of gratitude that I’ll never be able to express. If only it could
help me to change, to grow, to become truly Yours!
And this work of the new scaffold is so full, so rich, and so intense; it is such a gift…
*20-11-1977, Auroville:
I have been reading “Sufi” by Idries Shah… I feel deeply about them, as if
belonging to one Family, to that Continuum through history; while I never feel such
attraction or affinity towards the Tantrics or any other special discipline…
I only know You, and I feel like I know the Sufi too… In the mind and in the
aesthetic being I know something of Japan too, and of the Zen way; I know
something of China also, from before, and part of the black African growth and
heritage; but only the Sufi really answer, and You are the Jewel of it all…
*26-11-1977, Auroville:
When I want measuring for the wood, I found that I had made a very stupid
mistake in the marking of the scaffold and felt really silly and would have wept for
it. It will take at least half a day to correct it and there might be difficulties in some
places. I told the others about it and they were all very nice and wanted that we
should do it today itself… But I can’t forgive this inertia in my mind, and that I’m