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*9-3-1979, Auroville:
At work Gl brings fresh news from Delhi – M.D and Prem have returned already:
the message is that we must hold on to our position regarding the SAS at least until
the end of this month, which is also the end of the financial year, as the SAS
Accounts are under scrutiny and their various frauds have become widely known;
and that we ought to use “Auromitra” for channelling funds and, meanwhile, start
collecting small contributions directly, and present Matrimandir’s needs in a clear
manner. Also, that all the “Quit-Notices” – 10 by now – are being frozen for the
moment and “Auromitra” has made a representation to become recognised for the
issuing of guarantees for the Visas… A way forward seems to be opening, at last…
*14-3-1979, Auroville:
As I walk around Matrimandir in the evening, I see a young woman walking her
cycle and somehow feel drawn to her… As I come nearer I see it is she whom I
have seen twice already, from a distance, clad in a rose sari, at the concreting and
at Auroville’s birthday, very lovely… This time she wears a simple long skirt… The
feeling of her lingers with me as I return home…
*15-3-1979, Auroville:
The young woman attends the PT meeting at “Tapoloka”. Her name is Miriam, she
is American. Our eyes often meet. Afterwards I just ask her if she is staying with
us; she replies: “for a while”, and I leave it at that, wanting and needing to offer
it…
*16-3-1979, Auroville:
Another “silent gathering” has been called by the same group, at the Banyan tree,
on the theme: “the true spirit of Auroville is collaboration”.
I attend it in a way, standing nearby, while about 40 people sit silently, more or
less the same people, with the addition of big J this time, and small J and Chris and
the young woman, Miriam, has also come, and M from “Aurogarage”.
Th plays a tape of the 1973 New Year music with Your reading of Your message in a
broken voice, and quietly I think: “yes, we all want true collaboration and solidarity,
in feeling, words and action but, as long as in your mind you imply that we must
collaborate with the SAS who have clearly shown their will to dominate and enforce,
how is that possible? A truthful and unified movement towards the future, yes, but
submission to the will of a few?”
After everyone has left, Miriam lies down in the grass complaining of a severe head
pain; I sit near her, she curls up and cries a moment; then she asks to go up to the
Chamber; I let her go by herself and only later climb up to see whether she is
alright… She gave me her Hopi ring… Again I offer it up, whether we have to come
closer or not, whether it is helpful to both…
In the evening I write it all to You; I also tell C.E fully about it. I am so thankful for
this gift of friendship and companionship…
*18-3-1979, Auroville: