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human beings. I wish rather that I would always be giving and never have to draw
from the others; that I would be able to constantly receive from You, from the Lord,
by practice of the correct positioning… But here I am, in-between again!
… It is difficult in Auroville today to find a work that can be a real service to You, to
which one can really consecrate oneself… One would yearn for hierarchy! But I see
that ego and greed for power still make true hierarchy impossible – unattainable;
even a thing to be rejected! However nothing seems to be able to replace it: this
“psychic” or “divine anarchy” requires wakeful individuals, accurately conscious of
their real souls… We have a lot to go before that becomes a fact, don’t we?!
28-3-1979, Auroville:
We’re still unable, collectively, to agree on how to channel the needed funds for
Matrimandir… We found out that, before the price of steel goes up, Piero is thinking
to go back to Madanlal for money : at this both Al.B and Yus get furious, in a way
that makes me wonder and step back. There is something off there as well!
Yus, in his fanatic way, goes on a diatribe against “Marwaris” – Navajata, Kishorilal,
Shyamsunder, and Madanlal are all “Marwaris” – and I just have to go away… We
can’t be together on this basis! Patricia and I return to work, determined to
concentrate on it even more…!
*29-3-1979, Auroville:
Today is the first day the new pump at “Sincerity” is running; after weeks of
waiting, and good advice from several quarters, it was all checked up finally
yesterday; the water is till murky but the pressure is good and we can begin to
organise the care and tending of this whole place with some independence. And
today is the anniversary of Your first meeting, Mother Sri Aurobindo…!
.. Tonight, looking at my own impurity, I touched perhaps the means to change
it…! It is no more a struggle against the physical mind, or the sexual impulses, or
out of the hell created by conflicts between different parts or elements and the
compromises reached out of weakness and ignorance… There is something else,
something more, a direct, kind of objective perception of the impurity, which
contains, or is one with, the sense of the movement that is likely to help; it is a
new sense… but it too requires perseverance and fidelity…!
*Note regarding the will expressed by members and supporters of the SAS
to come and attend the Auroville Birthday celebrations.
« Il nous semble nécessaire d’exprimer une fois de plus ce qui nous semble être
une loi fondamentale de l’expérience que Mère a nommée « Auroville » : toute
personne qui se sent appelée à vivre cette expérience et à tenter de s’y donner est
la bienvenue. Mais nous devons refuser l’entrée d’Auroville à quiconque s’affilie à un
groupe ou une organisation qui revendique un droit de propriété ou de contrôle sur
Auroville.
Auroville appartient directement à ce Divin dont Mère et Sri Aurobindo sont les
représentants et ils n’ont besoin d’aucune organisation extérieure pour établir et
manifester la vérité d’Auroville. »
“A hero fears nothing, complains of nothing and never gives way.”