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*5-7-1989, Auroville:
Early this morning while I was still at Janet’s, Piero came in to bring her a copy of
Mauna’s letter for her to take to the Council meeting. I tried to let him see he’d
better come back to work; but he says he is revolted and very depressed and wants
Auroville to do something about Arjun… I feel this is not only wrong but dangerous,
but at this point it seems that all the protagonists are blinded to anything but their
own roles… Janet also took a copy of my proposal…
*7-7-1989, Auroville:
At Matrimandir it is still very uncertain. But Su’s work in the office (she has
volunteered to do the job Mauna had been doing) seems to be fitting, and it is
alright with Arjun. However Piero is still agitating in Auroville and it is all very
tricky.
Andy came to me in the morning to tell me of his idea to ask for a team of 3 people
from Auroville at large to investigate and try to find a solution to the conflict, at the
same time re-opening the entire issue of Matrimandir, its work and its completion,
to the whole of Auroville… I said I could agree to that only if Piero would first
resume his work for, otherwise, he was only misusing his authority and
responsibilities. Andy seemed to see that, but I feel I may have to clarify it further
at tomorrow’ meeting…
… When I came home early afternoon I found, waiting for me in the garden, Pnina,
accompanied by a friend of hers, a beautiful Israeli man, Avi. There are here only
for a few days; I was glad to see her, after nearly 4 years I think, and to meet her
friend. They’ll come again soon.
*8-7-1989, Auroville:
From 11 am till 2 pm we had this difficult, exhausting meeting.
Piero was absent.
Besides observing the respective truths, as well as the respective dishonesties, and
wondering still how so many of us here can remain blinded to the most basic
necessities, it is also very instructive to watch and be part of such events – but in
what way it is instructive, I cannot well define: it helps a certain awareness to grow
or expand… Yet, by the end of it, I felt depleted…
It is only toward the end that I spoke and tried to disengage, or disentangle what
could be a basis for agreement: that we would all be at work on Monday; and that a
commitment on Auroville’s part – on the community’s part – would be made to help
organise the work of completing Matrimandir in all its aspects.
To this John H added that we would also commit to cease criticising – meaning, I
guess, blaming – others…
I felt, too, that somehow in each individual, in each person, there was, and it is the
mystery of this transitional stage, a purity of intent…
*9-7-1989, Auroville:
Su has taken hard this entire drama at Matrimandir. She needed comforting. It is
difficult for her to enter this work there without the security that she won’t be
displaced by another upheaval, and she fears the loneliness of it, with me being so
aloof and independent… I suspect she has also felt let down seeing how much time
I am willing to spend with Selvam, lately…