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the quality needed in the instruments. There’s only Ramalingam I can count upon,
really, and he was the one to find out that the carpenters had botched up their job
on the pillar. It is nothing disastrous, but it is a waste of time and energy;
And it gives me the sense, very concretely, that if we are serious about completing
the entire structure and its surroundings, we must shift scale – we cannot go on
with the basis we now have, or it will take decades…
There are too few people willing to share the load.
I don’t know how to move forward.
This afternoon Catherine, LN and I had another session with Roger A on the central
staircase, and things became a little simpler, a little freer of details, and easier to
materialise. But there is such a huge amount of details that are generated by Roger
A’s approach to decoration that to me it is like looking at an endless servitude to
artefacts and complications; and yet there is no doubt that he has evolved towards
simplicity…!
I doubt very much the usefulness of my participation in these sessions; I wish
actually that both Roger A and Piero would listen to each other and work together:
their respective blocks have thrown us all into such a deep pit for so long…
… This evening I wanted so much to clean it all out and to centre, to go to the
ocean, or somewhere where Matter is One, IS… But the days have become even
shorter, dusk falls at 6 pm… I did some pruning work around the house instead, till
I could no longer see the branches…!
… Selvam is pulling at me again, wanting me to give him some directions out of his
personal troubles (between his wife, and Mary, and his own family…), but I do not
wish to get that involved again…
*22-11-1989, Auroville:
A good working day today, with less talk. And there is now a clear understanding
with Ramalingam that he needs to be there full-time, so I may proceed with
opening or initiating more areas of work…
*23-11-1989, Auroville:
This afternoon we first had a small session on Information and Access, to make
sure there are enough of us to take up all the shifts and duties, and to prepare the
ground for the new organisation, with proper gates and control, watchmen and
guides and an active Information service.
Then there was a session with Catherine and Roger A; the work we are doing
together is quite interesting; we are now studying the four main doors to the
sphere… It is like pulling the magic thread of a complete Matrimandir… So far the
contact between the three of us is good, simple and easy…
*25-11-1989, Auroville:
Selvam called me to come and meet him. He had to have more steel fragments
removed from his eye – tiny splinters – and he was very confused too with his
personal scene; his wife had discovered where Mary lives; he was worried about his
kids and wanted me to take him so he could see them; and then his friends have
got involved, and we had to meet with Selvraj and Janah and Narayanswamy, and
sit all together trying to see how to best resolve this situation… I am only there out
of a sort of faithfulness to Selvam; I do not expect anything anymore from this