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friendship; but he still counts on me and sometimes needs me, as he has only me
really to whom he can open, with whom he can share all his questions…
*27-11-1989, Auroville:
The Congress I Party is barely winning the elections.
There is nothing glorious: the country is wounded everywhere…
… We had our first formal “Planning” session this afternoon: Piero, Janet, Mathias,
Toine, Walter, Catherine and me; Roger A and Luigi didn’t come. There seems to be
the possibility of opening together to a working space and an energy of service; but
the sheer amount of practical questions to take to their material solution is
awesome…
*30-11-1989, Auroville:
Today Catherine and I met with Serge, a man who has worked for many years and
in many places for “Craterre”, an organisation that promotes compressed earth as
building materials, regarding the possibility of building the 12 Petals with packed,
sterilised soil…
*1-12-1989, Auroville:
Su has committed to look after an exhibition of paintings from Auroville in Madras
for several days, and she is now apprehensive about the distance…
*4-12-1989, Auroville:
I don’t see there is any progress in “me”…
Sometimes I so much miss a different quality of atmosphere, and particularly a
different quality of interaction, of sharing between people; it is as if a memory,
from some far-off country that is home; it doesn’t come from some ideal; it exists,
some place, and I long to return to it, or to bring it here…
*6-12-1989, Auroville:
Nowadays I am always active. I used to resent this constant movement as a
servitude, and to fear that there could be no pure rest ever in the manifestation;
but now perhaps there is the beginning of another perception; it is in the measure
of one’s adhesion to the Lord in the World: one begins to know that, eventually, it
will be the very concreteness of the Presence that will be the rest one seeks… It will
be the cessation of separate responsibility…
…. It is twenty years today since I first came to Auroville; it will be twenty years on
the 9th since I saw You for the first time in this life…
It seems that it should perhaps take a hundred more years for this physical
existence to, actually and in fact, become a pure drop of That, united to You…
*7-12-1989, Auroville:
One positive outcome of Selvam’s confused personal choices is that he’d rather
spend the entire day at work than face his domestic chaos…!