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Krishna made a call to let go, to accept a freeing anarchy, a soothing release,
allowing the real quality of each person to stand and to create…?
*6-6-1981, Auroville:
I have handed over all the files to the new “government’ of our lack of being… It
has taken me just two rides.
Barbara, Diane and I have coffee here, measuring the extent of that change…
*7-6-1981, Auroville:
Left unused, working out the poison, trying not to get sucked by depression;
Krishna, Diane and I stand together, blank, assimilating…
*8-6-1981, Auroville:
I have gone to bid my farewells to the FRO people in Pondy.
Diane and I meet on the beach; we swim and rest and have dinner with J.C there,
and we sleep in one of the tiny huts…
*9-6-1981, Auroville:
The anguish, of there being no path, of having nothing to share, no meaning and no
purpose to sustain life…
… Kanyappan’s prematurely born baby died today…
*10-6-1981, Auroville:
Krishna tells me that “someone” from the “community” has come to warn him not
to remain my friend; that I am an adverse being and he must get away from me…
Even with Krishna they try…
… I shake myself up, out of this passivity… And then Hervé comes to bring me the
Volume 11 of Your Agenda…!
… Diane and I go back to the beach, with our copy of the Agenda, and rest there
and swim and look at the sea and read…
You have suffered so much, Mother…! It is hard to accept…
*11-6-1981, Auroville:
It is tough for Diane, perhaps tougher than for me, to be left inactive…
*16-6-1981, Auroville:
I have taken up exercising the body with E.B; she gives me daily classes and it
helps me in re-organising energies, and to focus on progress and simplicity. I feel
like a baby again…
Diane and I spend much time on the beach, where Jacq often joins us, and
Krishna…
… Lately, a lot of my dreams activity has been taking place in the US, where I meet
a good many people…