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From there will begin a new adventure.
And until then, nothing will ever be in its true place.
Individualities do not matter as such, or in the way we think or conceive of it – they
do matter, but… Everything is the same and yet different…
*25-12-1986, Auroville:
Su did have a gift for me and it was indeed wrapped in orange flowers, and she was
keeping it ready at her house; I opened it after midnight: it is a miniature work, a
tiny silver statuette of a dragon, resting on its hind legs and holding in its front
paws a crystal globe that contains a rainbow… It is exactly the same work than on
the tiny statuette of a unicorn which Auralice had been given just before D.M and
Janaka’s passing… I like it so much! I don’t know really what dragons stand for, but
they may represent an aspect that matters!
… I went later to Barbara’s; she had invited several of us to come by and she had
prepared some Christmas gift for everyone; this was a sweet movement on her
part… And it was good to be with Arjun and Deepti and John H and Ar. and Su and
Akash, together…
… Ar. brought me the latest “Auroville Review”: its main intent seems to be to
officially allot to Satprem the place of “the one who now does the work”… I don’t
know; their attitude is disturbing: it is not a question of whether they are “right” or
“wrong”, but that they find it necessary to say such things at all… I can’t help
sniffing the old “ego” there, and it has got nothing to do with Satprem; but I do
worry, sometimes, that it may affect the quality and the reach of his own
experience…
*28-12-1986, Auroville:
Souvent ces temps-ci il m’est donné de sentir le Chemin. Et combien les termes du
Chemin sont simples.
Une seule Chose compte ; on peut le dire peut-être ainsi : l’infusion de Conscience
fait tout le travail.
C’est par le processus de devenir plus conscient que tous les changements
nécessaires s’effectuent ; c’est un seul mouvement, une seule réalité évolutive.
Et, à certains moments d’expérience, il me devient clair combien tout, tout, et
toutes les « difficultés » contribuent à la concrétisation du Chemin, pour chacun
uniquement…
*29-12-1986, Auroville:
It is a blocked mood, waiting just to lie down and sleep; I seem to need a crazy
amount of sleep…
Also, due to an accumulation of small lies, and little ugly pulls on the part of most
of the men at “Ravena”, there is a climate there that is sad, subdued, lacking
sufficient trust, and it is not easy to cope with it… And with N I had a scene this
morning: I simply had to tell him what I thought of his attitude; and he began to
cry… Yet, later in the day, it got better and clearer, and we could recover some of
that sweet flow between us… I know it is not easy for him to be my friend, as most
people around him, at work or in the village, never seem to loose a chance to be
nasty about it, and he must carry it alone…
… I met Larry on the road; he’d just had a strange telex from Janaka’s father who
claimed having received no communication whatsoever – when it had been on the