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yesterday was the new moon, D.M’s sign; perhaps something has upset those parts
or elements that have remained connected with the place and with the work… I do
not know anything; and I don’t care to “know” mentally; I care to grow more aware
and conscious, centrally, but I have no knowledge: only a mixed bag of
perceptions, impressions, and fragments of experience…
*8-12-1986, Auroville:
I spent a quiet moment with Su, because I’d seen that she had become upset, and
I find it important that friendship is upheld.
… I have been preparing a comprehensive statement of accounts, to be sent to
Janaka’s sister, along with a letter, as Larry told me today that she had talked over
the phone with Nini of “Aurelec” and expressed the view that the family wasn’t at
all considering contributing more money to “Ravena”… Larry seemed to be
depressed about it and feeling defeated and about to give up trying; but I insisted
that we must keep trying to make them understand (the significance of “Ravena”
and its importance to Janaka)…
*9-12-1986, Auroville:
One of last night’ activities was an interesting adventure: we were on the moon,
and had found, finally, water; and we also found a pack of elephants; and we also
met “people”; they were few, but very intense people, with very interesting
attitudes; and the quality of the air is such that I can easily and happily do what I
could only do in dreams of the subtle physical, that is to float up and down and
over the whole place freely, fast or slow, fast and slow, just like a naiad in water,
moving comfortably with the air currents…
*10-12-1986, Auroville:
There’s been some agitation today regarding Krishna: Akash, sent by Barbara, went
around trying to gather everybody “as a group’ (probably the worse movement to
fall into), so that could be conveyed to Krishna that he must change his ways
regarding his music playing – his loud and insistent and relentless playing has
driven both Barbara and Pat to a near-hysterical state… I know well what it is, for
having lived it myself, but my experience with Krishna makes it impossible for me
to join such a gathering; so, I declined. But it worries me: Krishna isn’t well within
himself…
… This afternoon Su left on my cycle the most delightful note I have ever received:
she has tried to write in French about the clothes line that had broken, and her
attempt created a most wonderful, sweet and funny sentence; strangely, it has left
me with an impression of much dearness: I shall keep it with me…
*11-12-1986, Auroville:
Ar. came to meet me at “Ravena” this morning, needing to talk; she is worrying
over my relationship with Su…
And then Yaap came and somehow, for the first time, it turned out to be a rather
simple and straightforward talk; he seems to have seen now and accepted the
necessity for him to build his own house on a different plot, not as near to the main
house, rather than to convert the hut into his own thing; this is encouraging…!