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on this acrylic/polyester/Plexiglas trip, garish and loud and utterly artificial… What
will happen? It is sad: G.M hasn’t come once to see me since his return to Auroville,
two months ago, and that says something too…!
*20-9-1987, Auroville:
Early this morning I brought my gift to Ar.’s house, for her birthday, while she was
out; it is a coloured wax drawing I have made and framed for her; I think it is
peaceful and harmonious and musical, and hope she’ll be happy with it…
… She came this evening to bring me a piece of cake; she was disturbed; Ritam
hadn’t been nice to her the whole day; and then she said that she had decided to
leave “Sincerity” when Su would arrive… And at once the old fatigue bore down on
me, the drama and the falsity, and the depression…
*21-9-1987, Auroville:
That depression is still there. But there is also a sort of anger – at Ar., for choosing
drama over progress and the overcoming of her limitations and exclusivism… This
resurgence of the drama yesterday has at once instilled its poison and there is now
a tension; when Su’s return was a simple, rich and quiet event in itself, it has now
become involved and weighed upon with the tricks, ropes and chains of unreality…
*22-9-1987, Auroville:
There’s been a heavy transport strike for several days, and tomorrow is to be a
general bandh in Pondy. In Auroville too there’s been some agitation; lots of
meetings and tall declarations, and new factions forming and strange alliances…
And at Matrimandir the “Acrylic group” is going on with that ugly and vulgar model
for the cover of the sphere, while the great man himself, Roger A, has written an
awful letter of dismissal to Piero… It is the very attitude of religion: he, Roger A, is
for ever the depository of the one and final truth of the matter…!
*23-9-1987, Auroville:
There is a rather unpleasant atmosphere all around, with violence and bullying, and
more strikes and road-blocks… And here in Auroville, there’s effervescence that
seems to lead nowhere at all: Ar. told me of the special meeting that took place
under the Banyan Tree, for “those who want to live another way, to find Something
Else”…: new combinations without a real inner change… I just know that there is a
false tension abroad, and I do not wish to fall prey to it…
… This evening after work I cycled down to the beach; the sea itself was turbulent,
with powerful currents driving the waves almost parallel to the shore; Franz was
there and saved my clothes from being grabbed by three drunkards…
… Some village agitators went around Auroville today to intimidate and prevent
stop the workers in all the units and settlements; but here and at “Ravena” they
kept working without a word…
*24-9-1987, Auroville:
Today I have been drafting an open letter to Roger A, regarding Matrimandir; I
have noticed that every time that I think of it, since a few days, a great tension
comes over me; while this group that is going ahead with the design has every