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*2-1-1981, Auroville:
Myrtle is packing up to move over to the Guest House. As the children have gone to
Bangalore with Pala, she is free this evening to come to me and stay. We meet,
quietly. I find the young woman in her, the need and the unreserved self-giving; I
find a sister too: there is that quality between us… I have wanted this experience to
be for her a bringer of wholeness, of reconciliation with herself, before You…
*4-1-1981, Auroville:
I have come back to the house!
I have for the moment left all the papers and office work in C’s room.
… Gl’s intervention against me has affected and hurt me more than I could know
and offer, more than I thought at the time… And now I think I shall not go to
Matrimandir for a while and let G.M be joined there by his friends – and so perhaps
this is the start of a new phase?
*6-1-1981, Auroville:
The Supreme Court has postponed our case: it is now N° 6, due either in February
or in April… It does not come as a surprise: a breakthrough there ought to
correspond to one here, and… we are stuck!
Fred has instructed Diane that Ruud, Toine and Piero should pursue a contact with
MGR in Madras…; there is an element of spite or contempt in Fred’s attitude
towards our “gropings”…
… I am still distressed by the attack made by Gl on my friendship with G.M, and by
his own passivity. He goes to Matrimandir without me now; we can hardly share…
*7-1-1981, Auroville:
Today has been a festival of light and pure air, cool and clean and dancing…
… Half our Coop team is in Delhi and I am left with three women – Myrtle, Diane
and Barbara -: it is definitely ironic!
… Tonight V comes to get me: C.E has been vomiting for days and is now very
weak. I go there before my night-watch with Myrtle: he is relieved and comforted…
I “diagnose” jaundice!
*8-1-1981, Auroville:
Satprem has also become a party at the Supreme Court. I am quite happy about
that…
*9-1-1981, Auroville:
My copy of the 9
th
Volume of the Agenda has come!
*11-1-1981, Auroville:
These days are fully busy, meeting so many aspects of this adventure, and
assimilating. I have got a severe tooth-ache and had to take pain-killers; there was
a kind of panic in my nerves, which clearly spoke of how long must be the way
ahead of me before I can receive anything real or substantial in the body…!