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Yet, since that moment, she has begun to worry that the birth may come
prematurely.
… Lines are being drawn around the issue of “Aurelec”…
… In the night, between dreams, I am suddenly “attacked by Krishna”: he had
come stealthily, in the night, to kill me on my bed, with a blow of something like a
heavy bar, and I actually experience my “death”; I wake up nauseous and
bewildered…
*30-5-1982, Auroville:
The work on the new room was completed yesterday; it is all calm now.
Calculating the birth to come on the 21
st
of June, we had planned on three weeks
prior to it to really get settled and ready…
But Diane feels now it may all happen sooner. She has gone to consult with Myr,
who found that the child’s head is already engaged, and has advised her to take
complete rest.
So I myself had to go to “Jaïma” to ask for her kids to be brought here to see her
before they leave to France…
*31-5-1982, Auroville:
Barbara has come to keep Diane company while I drive to Pondy to get all the
things we need for the birth, so Diane can relax, knowing it is all there, at hand…
Diane has actually said she is happy in her new room…!
… This evening I massage Diane; I feel the child moving, and I have a longing to
hold it in my arms, but I also feel clearly that it is too early, too soon…
Diane has quietened; and the child’s body has shifted back up a bit…
*1-6-1982, Auroville:
Diane is resting. I say home all day, and tend to everything; she is happy that
way…
After days of scorching heat – weeks, actually – the wind has brought masses of
rain clouds, fallen silent, and late afternoon it starts to pour, and keeps pouring well
into the night, cleaning up the last traces of the construction work, drenching the
soil, bringing relief to the whole garden…
*2-6-1982, Auroville:
Diane is quieter, and I feel the birth will not happen now, but at its correct time;
and there is the sense that we can now really prepare the atmosphere, while the
body of the child gets fully ready…
I am grateful, for everything. This place is such a gift of Grace…
*3-6-1982, Auroville:
As Diane says, we have to keep modest! We know nothing!
For her this pregnancy is entirely different – she had three children -, and she is
constantly puzzled by it.
There is a deep reality that smiles, holding treasures of being, and of becoming…