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*17-5-1985, Auroville:
J’avais demandé à Seven, en tant qu’ingénieur de formation, de m’aider à calculer
les renforcements des barres d’acier pour la structure des dalles de la maison de
D.M, après que Piero m’ait refusé son aide.
Mais maintenant c’est l’ego d’architecte de Seven qui vient en avant ; il est
mécontent que D.M ne lui demande pas de « concevoir » sa maison, et que je fasse
tous les plans sur la seule base des dessins et descriptions de D.M ; mais on est
tout de même parvenus à en rire ensemble, et il est reparti plus heureux, et prêt à
ne faire avec moi qu’un travail d’exécutant…
… Je suis seul, je crois, dans cette Auroville, à chercher le moyen de retrouver ma
fille…
*18-5-1985, Auroville:
I have asked Ar. to be left alone, these days, until I am out of this ordeal, for, in
the presence of anyone who is intimate with me, I cannot help asking for some kind
of support and participation, even inwardly; but I only get the impression of an
added mixture, of more drama, without any clear “yes”; and the I begin to resent
it, which is plain stupid…!
So, better leave me alone!
… I now think the only path that is left to me is perhaps to write an “open letter to
all”, asking for a fair appraisal…
*19-5-1985, Auroville:
Today, after the clean-up of the house – it is Sunday – I sat at the typewriter to
write a shortened version of my “open call”, in which I point to the ill effects of
exclusivism, and ask people to understand and to help break this vicious circle and
save Auragni from this misery… I know that no one ever did such a thing in
Auroville as this “open ca ll” but, at this point, not to do anything would mean, to
me, that I am a coward; I also say that I am willing to answer any question, in any
forum that may be elected…
*20-5-1985, Auroville:
I went down to Pondy to pick up Anurakta’s answers for the water-source, and to
have photocopies made of my open statement; I felt also that I might as well try to
put a more personal question to Anurakta, who quietly claims to be in some sort of
safe contact with Your Presence (he works with a gold pendulum in the way You
have taught him); I chose a formulation that had the best chances, I thought, to
indicate whether the answer would be coming truly from You; I asked: “What are
the options before me today?”…
Anurakta had prepared all the other practical answers, about the erection of D.M’s
house, the best date to begin work – he wrote the 9
th
of July -, and about the
drilling of a bore-well…
When I had the Xeroxes ready, I felt I wanted to try one last time to communicate
with Diane, before going ahead with this; I wrote to her, then, requesting her to
reconsider the situation, and warning her that I was thinking of issuing a public
statement… I mailed it at once.