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want to try and talk to the SAS people and persuade them to release materials and
funds unconditionally…
There is not as yet a real understanding between us but, at least, there is now
respect.
In the evening I go to Myrtle’s to fair up my letter, then to Piero and Gl’s to get
from them the correct address and ask them to sign: it is all smiles, as if nothing
had ever come between us…!
*26-6-1979, Auroville:
G.M is upset and a little desperate over our condition… But it seems to me that,
until the aspiration has become so intense and integral in each of us and there is
nothing else really that matters anymore, until that is realised, it is better to insist
positively on the basics of harmony, honesty, faithfulness…
… Miriam talks to me again of this work she wishes us to help her with, a video on
“Savitri” with Udar reciting; she shows me the correspondence between Udar and
D.V, and Udar’s report on Your vision of the US’s role in channelling money to
Auroville, and of his role in it as an instrument… I feel a little… strange about it: the
man is so ambiguous…! Mother, sorry, don’t be upset at me, I just have to
acknowledge before You the way I feel!
… John H comes in a hurry to say that Peter is having troubles with some villagers
at the Pump-House; C.E and I go there at once: there is a thick confusion but no
fight, only villagers, many of them, shouting and accusations flying. It seems that
some cows have been chased out of the compound and, while milling through the
gate, a smallish one had got knocked down and lay now unconscious, and the
villagers were accusing the boy working there with Peter of having beaten it to
death and already claiming Rupees 1,500/- for it…! Some of us then go, with most
of the villagers, to meet with a headman, while we both stay behind and proceed to
revive the cow: we make it breathe and empty the air out of its stomach and make
it drink and caress it and pat it back into shape and upright on its legs. When they
all return, they find it up and about and are all a little amazed – or embarrassed –
and it all becomes funny and simple…!
*27-6-1979, Auroville:
This afternoon we met again in the office. Ruud and D.S have gone to Kishorilal and
found him surprisingly willing to accept our conditions, that is, to buy the steel and
send it to Matrimandir without strings attached, and to purchase more materials
whenever needed against bills only… But Ruud and D.S themselves recommend
that we only go for one first transaction as a trial, with the purchase pf the steel…
… All these years it seemed that the opposites were for ever irreconcilable and that
only the yielding of one to the other could heal or end the conflict… But today it
appeared that the combining of all of our good-wills has allowed a simpler harmony
to manifest and that we can genuinely agree with one another… It is not that one is
overjoyed or excited with enthusiasm, but that there is a deeper sense of being on
the track, of moving forward, with no one feeling excluded from it…
… Later, G.M joins me here at home and tells me he has looked within himself for
the reason why he was not fully satisfied, and found this: until such time when the
SAS would channel all the monies directly through the “Envelopes”, there would not
be the change we all need…