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with those two kids here, alone, D.A not knowing whether he wants to come back…
I have been wondering a little if I shouldn’t take them all with me, to give the kids
a more balanced environment…
… Ar. and I looked at the last Bulletin of the Auroville Association in France… These
people make full and blatant use of their close rapport with Satprem, in a way that
I feel is sickening, and very detrimental to Auroville: they alone are the real ones!
And, according to them, Matrimandir is now the “cathedral of nought” (“la
cathédrale du néant”)… What is the game…?
*31-7-1985, Auroville:
There is a bit of drama with Seven who complains that I am putting far too much
steel reinforcement in the pillars of D.M’s house, arguing on the basis of his
diplomas against my having none…!
… P.V came to me so I would sign a petition regarding an “old” Court case against
about 30 of us, my name heading the list… It is so ironic that all these people who
now want me out of Auroville must yet sign below my name…!
*2-8-1985, Auroville:
Seven came here to see me today, under some pretext, but obviously with the wish
to set things right between us, quietly; I found that encouraging…
… Ar. brings some refreshing news: it seems that Bill S has listed 5 points for
consideration at the general meeting, in an attempt to lift up matters in a truer
light; one of the points is the necessity to reaffirm that no collective Service can be
withdrawn from any individual – and here my name is mentioned – without the full
assent of the community… Perhaps Bhaga, who came a few days ago to ask me my
views and understanding of the situation, has helped him to come to that…
… I received a sweet letter from Barbara; she, Akash and Ruud are staying in our
house in Brittany, welcomed there by C and R; they are soon to return here…
*4-8-1985, Auroville:
This morning Kanu, of the Ashram, came to see the site of D.M’s house; it was
good with him: the communication was clear and calm and poised; he gave a few
good advices; he liked what he saw and understood my concerns for strength and
stability, on this eroded land at the edge of a canyon, and his appreciation came as
a relief for Johnny…
… I met with Ojha today, on the road… As usual he went on telling me that I must
return to an “active life” in Auroville, and that he always supports me…! Isn’t that
funny…?!
*9-8-1985, Auroville:
I spent a long time in my sleep – at least I remembered it more clearly this time –
with the question of how to extirpate the “germ” of death from the cells; the
problem remains, terrible, of the contagion: in order to transform a whole
organism, a whole assembly of cells making up a single human body, and to give it
enough time to receive, or become conscious of, the true life and discover the ways
of the future, one should be in outer space, where particles are far apart and no
other complex organisms are there, otherwise the contagion of death is infinitely