707 / 1424
707
*14-2-1987, Auroville:
At times during the day, what was always there supporting the material experience
and would rise now and then like a jewelled peacock, seems to come purer and
more flowing now, closer to material ecstasy, quietly brimming, nowhere exactly, or
somewhere between the body and the whole…
It is as if the asanas, and the breathing, do help to clarify some issues…
*15-2-1987, Auroville:
I had last night another of these wonderful moments of experiencing: flying! This
time I was moving freely in the air over a crowded beach, and around structures in
the city, learning to control every movement, to increase or regulate speed… I love
it!
*16-2-1987, Auroville:
Ar., who seems to be my provider of knowledge these days, brought me a copy of a
fat report published recently, in a limited printing, on contacts made with beings
from the Pleiades, and materials received from them, with descriptions of their
spaceships; I am not quite comfortable with the quality of awareness that comes
through those people who have committed to making contact, while, oddly enough,
I feel much more at ease with the precise descriptions of the ships, or of the metals
they use: this makes sense…
…Ar. told me of the general meeting; some Aurovilians have worked with a young
lawyer who has come up with the idea of “collective property”! Everybody seems to
be enthusiastic about it. I don’t like the notion! I have no faith in it! I want Auroville
to remain the way You have set it, to be the Lord’s property exclusively! But maybe
I am just too wild?!!!
… I have received a good letter from C; in it she relates some hearsay: L, who
visited here last year, would have been told by Diane that she now knew she had
been influenced by people and should have stayed, and Auragni, with me…! But I
haven’t experienced any change or any opening in her attitude; I can’t say; it is
possible, knowing her, she might have spoken that way at a given moment, but it
makes no difference as long as she does not have the courage or the honesty to
make a sign towards me!
*17-2-1987, Auroville:
Now that I have, in my experience at least, gone so close to a physical break-down
and begun to pull out and reach for a beginning of harmony, physical, corporeal, I
can measure more concretely the devastating effect of negative formations,
especially when they are emotionally loaded; and I am still struggling for balance as
regards G.M’s shunning me…
… We went to watch that movie about the Amish community in the US, and it was
alright, interesting; but it seems that in order to acquire an identity and a
harmonious structure of solidarity, a group must perforce base itself on Manichean
principles and be exclusive and discriminatory, which at the same time is its
condemn and the end of its progress…!