600 / 1424
600
Piero, which put me in a great tension; it acted in my body like a tetanus thing, all
my muscles ached from it, and I went back down and left…
And this evening, when I related this experience to G.M, he told me that Piero has
been talking very unpleasantly, for sometime now, about “Ravena”, and about my
work there, with people around him, especially with Giov… And I understood, then:
Piero’s jealousy and spite at not having been consulted as an architect and planner,
etc… And it explained what I had felt yesterday, in Toine’s office: I had gone there
with the plan of “Ravena” to discuss details of electrification with Toine, and Giov
happened to be there too, and when he looked at the plan, I had felt soiled, and
had regretted not to have had the reflex to protect it… This is this harsh, stony little
mental ego that draws its energy from the Work, sucks it from the Fire in order to
subsist and persist and impose a bit longer the rule of its shallow understanding
and judgement… And the vulgarity of these attitudes, of these people…
… Tency came this evening to bring me all the receipts, vouchers and statements
for the bore-well; it has been good with him, to work as a team during those past
two weeks, and he too is, I feel, happy about it… And this well has now proven to
be one of the two best wells in the whole of Auroville, drawing not 16 but 50
thousands of litres an hour…!
*5-12-1985, Auroville:
E.B came to find me at “Ravena” this afternoon, in a miserable condition… It is a
little frightening to see a person who has met You and received so much from You
being now so closed, blocked to any and to all physical help and yet moving rapidly
towards a sheer physical dead-end… At least that is how it appears to be… I refuse
it; but I also cannot help; I am not capable of helping her, although she does seem
to find some support, some security and a bit of sanity by being near to me from
time to time…
*8-12-1985, Auroville:
Ar. wrote to me this morning; she is again in that state of frustration, obscure
attachment, dependency, anger and fear, and I just don’t know how, or whether at
all, to respond to it… In my experience, I have only known the pain of attachment
when sexual desire was threading itself into it; yet there seems to be other types of
attachment, as I must believe Ar. when she describes her states – and I set apart
my experience regarding Auragni, which I do not think can be termed as mere
affective attachment…
*9-12-1985, Auroville:
Tency told me this morning how it went for the new well at the Institute: Piero had
refused to alter his plans in order to accommodate for Anurakta’s findings for the
best location of this well; he had instead insisted that it must be done where he had
decided, declaring that he had no confidence in “those methods”; and Tency had
given up and gone along, and the boring crew had worked where Piero had wanted;
and that now they had drilled down to 200 meters and still found no water, which
means that they will now have to gamble and tap into the deep aquifer… Piero is so
damn sure of his little rational mind and so set in his positions…