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I don’t know; it isn’t clear yet…
… The water-situation is a big question. We are only about 600 people in Auroville.
We have planted and planted, wherever we could, mainly to recreate a balanced
environment, and to attract and retain water in the soil; but also to provide for
harmony, for an atmosphere of beauty and sweetness. Is it all bound to go to
waste? I can’t believe it; there has to be some subtle action, so that this entire
place is truly claimed by the Lord, despite the small human mediocrity on the
surface…!
*9-2-1989, Auroville:
Today is Diane’s birthday; that has triggered of course thoughts of Auragni, and the
same interrogation, although it has now been cleared of its drama and of most of
its pain… It is also the day, Jacques the dentist told me this morning, Nostradamus
in his prophecies had predicted to be the last day of the “Kali Yuga”…!
*10-2-1989, Auroville:
I have by now received two telegrams from C regarding Krishna’s papers, and both
are rather confusing; it doesn’t seem possible for Krishna not to go… This morning
he worked with me in the garden; it is a good thing that we work together; yet it
does take adjustments in the energies; he still wastes and talks too much and is
too tense. But besides what there always is between the two of us, in You, there is
also a growing inner unity among the four of us, Su, Gopal, him and me… And I feel
happy about it.
*12-2-1989, Auroville:
I am sort of hanging in a quiet confusion… It feels like waiting for a further degree
of Presence and of Force, waiting in a clumsy, barely redeemed stance, for a
channelling down, an animation: the lack is concrete, and its very concreteness
may be a sign of that fulfilling concreteness to come…
It is clear one cannot ask for oneself; it is clear one cannot really progress by one’s
own efforts either. There is offering and courage in accepting to remain empty…
*13-2-1989, Auroville:
N insisted that I come with him to see the small piece of land he has recovered
from relatives in Sanjeev Nagar, where he now wants to move: taking down his hut
in Edayachavadi and building a new hut on that spot; it may be a better village, I
am not sure; he may have less troubles there, being on his own land, and there’s a
school for his kids, and work opportunities for his wife; I’ll try and help him…
… Besides some sleepiness the last two days, I’ve had like a string or a series of
insights – what one could call revelations -, that came to strengthen, ground and
illumine my comprehension of the way; I feel no need to fix them into formulae; it
is wonderful, part of the Pressure and Its gift… There is rather a growing need to
break through lower down, so that a solidity of Force may manifest… Still, as often
in the past, I see that a single of these insights could give rise to a religion, if blown
out of proportion and… “context”; and I am grateful for the silent, discreet and
humble construction of the new being and of its new world…!